This is a  ❤️❤️❤️ palpitation moment. I have had many opportunities to dance in public and and always opt out.  This challenge makes me nervous.

Moment:  To dance a silly dance live on Periscope.

Details: Thanks to Melissa Ruddy, my fellow Periscope friend, and her sweet kids, Jack and Erin who TOTALLY rock in the area of silly, I have accepted their challenge to silly dance.  And because these kiddos are so gracious, they provided me with a how-to video on Periscope.  They are amazing!  So, I have been studying the dance moves of Elaine from Seinfeld and will attempt to replicate.

My fear:  That I will look ridiculous and my fellow human beings will think less of me…like some dippy, featherbrained, nitwit. And that my viewers will have to shut off the video as quickly as possible or cover their eyes in horror. And THIS is the super ridiculous part, I’m afraid I won’t do Elaine’s dance right. 🙁 Oh, for heaven’s sake!!!

Also, I decided that if I didn’t dance live on Periscope (if I just showed the recording of it), I would attempt to make it perfect. And with Silly Moments, letting go of perfectionism is the goal.  Going  live was terrifying because if it looked stupid, I couldn’t erase it. It was done.

Response:  The wonderful ladies who watched me on Periscope were amazing. They were so proud of me and rooted me on, “You can do it”, “You’ll do great.”, “I’ll do it too over here. Don’t worry.” At the completion of my dance, @lisaaynwalker told me it was epic and  @HachureArtist told me she loved me.  🙂 I love Periscope World. The people there are so supportive and encouraging. I couldn’t have picked a nicer bunch of gals to dance in front of.  Oh! And the amount of hearts they sent me!!! I don’t think I have ever received that many hearts in one scope.

UPDATE: I just saw a very special scope from my 2 new young friends, Jack and Erin . Erin  explained how my dancing inspired her mom to face her fears too. I’m telling you…I teared up.  And then when Erin said she was afraid to play basketball because she’s not very good at it, I literally sucked air.  Oh, my goodness. Truth from the mouths of babes. Such honesty. How many things am I afraid to do simply because I don’t think I will be good at it?

Truth: It certainly did not seem as if my watchers felt I was a nitwitted featherbrain. They seemed to enjoy encouraging me to break free from my fears. Maybe when people know your character, they know your intentions, they know you are trying to be brave, maybe they think being silly is actually honorable. And truth be told, would it even matter if someone thought I didn’t have a brain in my body just because I was willing to be silly? Wouldn’t that make them ridiculous? Hmmm.  I am astonished how much I care about what others think of me. I really thought I had that area of my life under control. Ha!!

I’m starting to get excited about this journey. What if I became known as a silly person. Wouldn’t that be amazing? You now what? I wonder if  Albert Einstein was a bit silly. Remember this picture?

Albert Einstein I bet NO ONE thought him to be dim-witted.  That is one of my favorite pictures of him. Here is a man who is obviously a genius and he still could have fun.

I am going to have to start exercising more and slathering on more lavender oil; I don’t know how much cortisol (stress hormone) one can live on EVERY day and not have it harm them.  :-p

New Fear: Interesting. I don’t have any new ones related to this.  Well…I guess that isn’t completely true. I’m wondering if I will be brave enough to dance at the next wedding. I’ll take Einstein’s picture with me to remind me being silly is good.

How I feel:  I was asked this question right after my dance, and my first response was ’embarrassed.’ But now, after working through the fears, I feel pretty good about it. And really, it wasn’t as awful and embarrassing as I had imagined it would be. The fear was definitely bigger than reality.  I think I need to dance more.